can you be addicted to sadness

I’ve been wondering whether sadness can be a personality trait. There have been times in my life when I’ve felt a strange sense of comfort in being gloomy, sad, or in a general state of malaise. I would listen to slow, melancholic music to deepen that feeling. When I try to move out of that emotional state, I actually find myself missing it. What is this called, and why do I feel a sense of pleasure in being “gloomy”?

Maybe the effort required to change feels so much greater than staying the same, and that’s why I remain cynical.

I also wonder whether this emotional style can become addictive over time — whether it can settle in so deeply that it starts to feel like part of my personality.